For years I compared myself to others. Thoughts scurried throughout my mind daily, like, “if only I had her body or her hair, then I would be happy.” Then the boys would like me and life would be so much simpler. It took me many years to fully understand the idea that my beauty comes from my heavenly father and not from this world.
Psalms 139:14 tells us, "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well."
When God created you, He knew exactly what He was doing. Every single little detail about you, God purposefully created. In Luke 12:7, it tells us that God knows the number of hairs on each of our heads. I know that living in this day and age it can be confusing and easy for your calling to become twisted. However, every person on earth has the same basic calling. Our calling is to love and serve God and to fulfill His purpose for us on earth. Our goal should not be to please other humans but to please our God. I believe that when you look at yourself in a mirror and pick out negative flaws about yourself, you are actually insulting God…think about it! He made you the way you are for a reason and not only does it hurt God to see you hurt, but it must frustrate God when we say things like, “I wish I looked different.” He made you the way you look for a reason! He loves how you look and He is proud of how He made you! God thinks you are so incredibly beautiful and in reality, His opinion is the only one that truly matters.
My youth pastor once told me a story of two young girls named Ashley and Jenna. He said that one night Ashley approached his wife after church and was exclaiming how she wished that she were more like Jenna. That Jenna had the nicest car and Jenna had the best clothes and Jenna was just so funny. The conversation ended and twenty minutes later, my youth pastor's wife happened to be talking with Jenna. Out of nowhere, Jenna began to say how she wished she were more like Ashley and that she thought Ashley was so special.
This story hit me hard. The very flaws that you find despicable about yourself are the same flaws that someone else adores. The most precious time of the year to me is a sunset on a warm summer night. The air is just right. Not too cold and not too hot. The wind brushes past you and sends your hair into a frenzy. The sky is full of deep colors, unlike anything you have ever seen before. If the same God that created those sunsets also created me and loves me just the way I am, then what else could I want? What else could I need? God is where my assurance comes from. Where does yours lie?
"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you to be a prophet to the nations." Jeremiah 1:5
“You own the skies and still You want my heart.”
-Hillsong United “Up In Arms” Lyrics